Missing you

I always will reminisce those years when you sent me the birthday wishes at the strike of 12am. It’s my mistake that I never once signalled that I liked you. Even when I was happy about receiving the birthday message from the lst year I knew you. I didn’t have that self confidence and didn’t dare to confess . It could have been different if I had done that. I know now that it’s by no means coincidence that you remembered and sent through that message for the next 3 years . 

Still painful

It still hurts... and also hurting my ego that he’s probably just playing ...
All the close contact before I know about existence of another person is probably his way to get out of boredom.
I am probably the silly one who thinks that I find someone ..

回忆

习惯是可怕的。 我竟然会想他说话。
他现在不再联系，但我在想他。 我现在大概想他真的只是玩玩的。
不是个好男人。 但需要时间平复心情。

得不到越想吗？ 不理智的想起大学的他。 后悔当初没有把握时机，错过了我真的喜欢的人。

Hurt

人生如戏，戏如人生。 I probably didn’t expect I turn out to be a drama character .
I am trying to avoid getting hurt but the hurt has been inflicted . I made a decision but I needed to ensure that I would follow through . It’s not easy to let go of the emotions built up over the past few months .  I always miss the person in my heart but I know that it’s impossible now that I have missed my chances in the past . When this person appears , I just think can give it a try but I haven’t expected  the deception underneath . The feelings are not as deep but it still hurts .